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Last week of year 2010, I took one week leave. I really need some good rest, after busy for couple of hectic weeks. Actually, I thought of take 1 or 2 months leave, but I do not have such luxury privilege to dismiss from work for long period, only can take 1 week, better than none. The holiday start from Christmas. I had fun time with friends at karaoke, and spent couple of hours chatting. Girl's talk, talk talk talk... time fly!! I went back to home town for 2 days, doing nothing, but eat and rest, and eat and rest.... Back to Penang, settle something "BIG", one was buying car. This year, I spent a lot of "BIG" money: bought and reno my home sweet home; bought DSLR and little car, Myvi. I own a very comfortable home. I am learning photography from a gang of good sifu, and I got a new car to tour around. I am now in KL. This is my annual trip. hahaha... I will be in KL during year end, come here to find my sister and we go shopping. Usually I will shop...

I booked my little car, Perodua Myvi, few days before end of 2010. Perodua having sales, I got RM1000 discount. The process was super fast. I paid booking fee and down payment, I signed all the documents, for car loan, insurance and JPJ. Everything was in such a hurry, as I won't be in Penang till next year, and salesman need to close the business account end of December, and suddenly we had extra holiday on 31 December. phew... Luckily everything settled before I left Penang. The next day, got to know from the salesman, I got my car plat number. Huh!!! So fast!! Really fast and efficient service. ;) When I back to Penang "next" year, I will have my new car. Yeah!!!

Working very hard in office, to finish lots of work before go off for holiday. Left office at 5pm, erm.. this consider early for me. :D Thought can go back earlier, then plan to make some dessert and do housekeeping. But... My car having some problem, engine die off once I slow down, stop by at workshop, mechanic help me to do a minor adjustment on timing thingy (I not very sure what.. ) , problem solved, AND it's FOC. Ho.. Ho.. Ho.. Christmas present for me. Made dessert, housekeeping and laundry. Woo.... tired, but felt happy, I finished a lot of things, then I can have a full rest during holiday, or maybe full of fun. ;) soya lychee jelly I will be on long holiday till next year. Hurray... what plan do I have?? erm.. no solid plan yet. Go back home town for few days, in Penang for few days, then go KL for few days and celebrate new year there. Merry Xmas!!!

Here is my electricity bill for this month, paid by government. ^_^ The usage were less than RM20. bill with amount: RM13.73 It also an indication that, I seldom at home. The reason: 1) I worked late in office for past a month. Not like as late as 12 mid night, but I reach home around 8~9pm, it's kinda late for me. I have healthy lifestyle, and not going to screw it. 2) I do not have time to cook. (I am using electrical stove) 3) I do not have time to watch TV show. 4) I do not have time to vacuum and house keeping. 5) I do not have time to.....

Listening to this song again and again.. again.... Sorry That I Loved You - 倪安東Anthony Neely 詞：倪安東Anthony Neely 、Skot Suyama 曲：Skot Suyama For all of the times that I tried for your smile For making you think that I was worth the while So your love love love love love would be mine For sending you flowers and holding your hand That no one was there to take a stand But then love love love made us blind And I'm so sorry that I hurt you Sorry that I fell through Sorry I was falling in love with you I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time For all that I have done to you I wish that I could make it right So sorry that I loved you Sorry that I needed you Sorry that I held you tight And I'm so sorry for... Making you love me and saying goodbye For being the one that taught you how to cry It was love love love and it passed us by For giving you every thing that you dreamed For taking it back when I fled the scene Sorry love, for wasting your time And I'...

The weekend was all about photography. Saturday with group of photographer, we went to Floral Festival at Botanical Garden. Although it was raining, but it didn't stop the passionate photographers. :D Thanks to few sifu who gave me good advices, for me to produce nice photos. I took something like this... messy :( sifu said, detail would be better. More practices, then I got my favorite shoot. I named it “生命中的曲折” / "Twist of Life" I supposed to meet up with buddy after the outing, but failed to get in touch. So, I went to Queensbay Mall to take photo of Christmas decoration. the theme for this year is "Barbie", everything in pink. Sunday morning, met up with buddy, we went to Straits Quay for photo shooting. We were not the only photographer there. This new place in town attracts lots of attention, there was a group of photographer with cute models; a photography workshop with model in wedding gown, and many others. Hehehe.. I has a good sifu, spent couple...

Perodua Myvi Price ~ RM 50, 000 Installment per month: ~ RM 600 for 9 years Honda City Price ~ RM 90, 000 Installment per month ~ RM 1,000 for 9 years My current Iswara is old, can hear every noise while driving. :P I need a car to go to work, and the longest drive should be back to home town, seldom will go for long distance journey. I like City a lot, but with my current financial situation, kinda difficult to commit to that price. I am not good in taking care of car, rarely wash car. The car will be park under hot sun during working day. So, cheaper car would be better option uh...

I had a very nice weekend at home town, because.. I spent a lot to buy things that I like. Now I know money can buy happiness. :P hehehehe... Back home Friday night. The home is peaceful, while "The Mean Her Majesty", my grandma is away. No big bang nor annoying noise, I had a very good and tight sleep. Watched morning show on TV and enjoyed my simple breakfast, apple and cereal, read paper. The sky was gloomy, reflected my mood. Settle some stuffs that not able to be done during working days. Then I went to shopping mall. I was early bird, not many people. I was wondering around my favorite shops, comparing the prices. Oh.. Finally I found something that I had been looking for few months. Great!! 50% discount.. Hurray... so, I bought 2 pairs. :D ZeroX sun glasses Listen to Christmas carol while shopping, really felt relax and cheer. :) Everything has discount, tried a few cloths, and bought a few. After 4 hours in the mall, I was so hungry, need to back home. Mom...

The proposal is to improve existing system, extend the capabilities and performances. But, boss informed that we do not have server machine for it, think of other way to enhance it. 又要马儿好，又要马儿不吃草 - to expect a horse to run fast and yet won't feed it. I always see this situation. Is it the same out there? Or only in my company? No training provided when need to pick up new knowledge, yet not include learning buffer in delivery schedule. So, the horse is going to walk, instead of run for championship.

It was a very tough mission for a newbie photographer!! Sister's wedding dinner was held in KL, in a restaurant with very nice and warm ambiance. I felt great and thought I could snap lots of nice photos. Tried to shoot a few photos, dark. Ok, try flash, ee.. how come still long shutter?? Switch from Aperture to Auto mode, yiak!!! Dark background and harsh subjects. :S Oh no.. how come ar? What's wrong here??? Set ISO, set exposures.. set... OK, got it right at MANUAL mode, and shutter speed around 1/4 to 1 second, my hands need to be very steady!! Phew~ luckily I was there 3 hours earlier, can try out a lot of setting to get it right. decor on stage In the action, a bit nervous and rush, got blur photos and retake, some angles were too dim, have to switch to Auto mode, sigh.. I thought I was lousy, but the other photographers also can not get it right, hee... I think I am not too bad after all. :P Pity my feet, 3 hours on high heels with heavy camera gears. At the end ...

只要再多一点点耐心，就可以找到泊车位。 只要再多一点点耐心，无需对无理司机詛咒。 只要再多一点点耐心，始终可以到达目的地。 只要再多一点点耐心，气氛就可以融洽些。 只要再多一点点耐心，我不需要战战兢兢。 就多那么一点耐心。。。

It has been a very long time I do not update my blog, too busy. It was very eventful months. The happiness events - sister's wedding, brother convocation, family trip. The miserable - sick for 2 weeks plus, sleepless and tiring. Photography - getting serious in the hobby, family events, outing. But I not fit enough to carry the heavy gear, super tired after every session, sometime need to take pain killer. :s The work - sigh.. never ending assignments, stay late in office, tight schedule, sudden request.. bla bla bla... Coming events Family events - sister 3rd wedding dinner in KL in Nov, cousins' wedding in Nov and Dec. Project celebration - hope this will be a good one, working so hard for it. Long weekend ahead, I can have a good rest.

一场婚宴，让我累得垮了。不够人手帮忙，父母又要得体，这个要，那个不可少，可以到来帮忙的人更是少之又少。 妈妈什么事都要亲力亲为，把食物准备得过剩，吃不完、坏了、倒掉。我一早屡劝不听。从天明，就和三姨在厨房团团转。我真不明白她怎么还有那么多事情忙，已经预定了伙食，还要准备食物。 爸爸，等待朋友到访，左等右等，打电话三催四请，只来了三三俩俩人，非常冷清，外坡的亲戚该到的都还没到。 准备晚宴的时间到了，妹妹、妈妈和我到婚纱店化妆。期间，电话响个不停。家里的男人，真是不善处理家事。客人到了，该怎办？东西找不到，放哪里了？问路的电话也不少。。。 家里突然间多了很多人，站都没地方站，处处人撞人。我不知道谁是谁，我不知道该怎么称呼，笑容是最亲切的问好。 我的任务开始了，我是唯一的摄影师，还是个学艺不精初学者，真怕招架不住。我第一个到达会场。布置需要调整，投影需要试播，桌子需要预位。客人陆陆续续到来，我要拍照，我要带客人入座。。。帮手呢？？ 我全场走透透。 新人入席、上菜后，也没得好过。没时间享用美食，拍照是我的任务。糟糕！！没法调我的相机，最坏的一计，全自动，不调了。根本没时间让我慢慢调，有一刻，我真的快要哭出来了，师傅救命啊～～～ 重重的拙折感！灯光不均匀，唉唉唉。。。 我好累、好累、好累。。。 双脚好痛、好痛、好痛。。。睡了一夜醒来，连声音都沙哑了。以后，没人手帮忙，就别搞这些这么麻烦的事情了吧。。。

I was strip naked, lying on bed, allow another person to touch every inch of my body, from head to toe. I feel the pressure from hands, smoothly move over my body. Hahaha.. I had a wonderful massage today. Full body massage, body scrub and spa. Marvelous!!! Relax!!! The whole session around 2.5 hours, the masseur provided the adequate strength, although some spots will be a bit painful, but I still enjoy it. :) I can see some bruises on my legs, it is normal for me after massage, it is process of detoxification. After massage, is spa. I had a red wine spa. Drinking wine while spa? No la, the red wine is poured into the spa bathtub, then I was boiling myself in the tub. ;) Yeah.. Fresh!!!

Photography fever heating up fast, next level --> I bought Nikon D90. Hehehe... the gear set I visited a few shops to check out the price. Morning doing the survey, afternoon locked down a shop. Yeah.. paid and got my babe. :) Next step, identify the button, the menu, the function.. arrgghh... too many buttons, to0 many functions. :S Step by step, begin with quick start manual, then to full manual. Nikon family I love the babe, one item lesser from my wish list. Thanks to buddies who gave me lots of advice, teach me the photography techniques and practice with me. Learning in progress...

The first time, I join a gang of photographers, go for an outing at fun park. We were there quite early, before dark. The park just opened, not many people yet. We snapshot freely, even enter the ride area. No one stop us, as there was no customer yet. :P The gang well equip with DSLR. Me? Using compact camera. hehheee.. I am aiming for DSLR for long, but do not have budget yet. Wait for coming bonus... I can still snap very nice photos though, skill does matter. hahahaha... ;) the gang I got a bit boring when the night fall, I hardly to snap any photo with compact, lack of flash. The gang continued, I observed aside. I wish I can get the DSLR soon!! I learned from sifu, it was a great time. I can not sleep at night, had too much of fun? Or I was hungry in the mid night? I think both. :P It's not end yet. Photo sharing in Facebook is another fun part, photos telling the story, or you can make story from the photos. :P Sifu said this is nice shoot from me. :D swing... p...

I am addicted!! I visit lots of boutiques, love to see various fashion collection. Wow.. I like the red dress, I like the white blouse, I like the flowery one too... so many cloths that I like!! Hee hee.. this is the situation when I browse online boutiques. :P Really convenience to shop online. No need to jam on road, no need to worry car park is full in the mall during weekend. And the most important, the price is much cheaper. The only shortfall is, not able to try out the cloth before buy. So, I will buy from the catalog that has the measurement stated clearly. So far, I am satisfied with the goods that I had bought. ;) After I post this blog, I will continue my shopping... :D

人群中，擦肩而过，没感觉，只是个路人甲，没有一丝眷恋。 过了一个转角，我依然是我。不！我活得更精彩、更坚强。 再见已是陌路人。。。

Sunday is beautiful, won't be awake by annoying alarm. Wake up and lying on bed, planning how to spend my day. Cook a meal for myself. Spent an hour in kitchen. Cut cut cut... chop chop chop.. yeah.. a simple, and tasty meal is ready. I love the vegetable fried rice a lot. 3/4 of vegetables + 1/4 of rice. I use soy sauce and pepper as seasoning only, surprisingly it's really good, the taste of all vegetables blend well, each bite is crunchy... drooling!!! simple and tasty - pork, egg and vege fried rice After filled my tummy, went for shopping. Sales everywhere. I was there quite early, not crowded. Took my leisure time to try the cloths. Woohoo... fruitful days!! La.. la.. la... la la.... Happy Sunday!

"You have nice body." Am I??!! Heeheehee.. Some guys said it to me. :P I should be happy about it. :P First time was an Australian guy, try to add me in FB, but I ignored him, he not sound friendly. Today at gym, I saw an uncle wondering around in the gym room, peeking at me. Then he got a chance to talk to me. He said I have good body, but need to concentrate to workout on tummy. He showed me the way to flatten my tummy. Wow.. he is fit, at the age around 50, can do those workout, but I can not make it. Practice make perfect, let me train a bit!! ;)

和朋友在乔治市找美食。我们俩人，很豪爽的叫了卤面，炒粿条，还有东炎美极面。 卤面，不是普通的汤汁，而是炒卤面，加了米酒和醋，像鱼翅羹。很久以前，第一次吃到它时，就很喜欢了。再一次吃着，慢慢享用。太赞了。 炒粿条，很有锅气，粿条很入味，还有大大只的虾。朋友是槟城人，也赞不绝口。 东炎美极面，没太惊喜，不过海鲜用料下的很大方。 我们吃得津津有味。美食，小食多滋味，分量不多，我们才得以一餐吃三道。哈哈哈。 我就是喜欢拉着槟城人，带我去觅食。 :D

See doctor every week. :( Last week, I was having stomach pain and diarrhea. This week, having migraine!! Thought can sleep it off, but bad headache make me awake till 2 ~ 3am... I feel my head gonna blast off. A painful Saturday morning, seeing doctor again. Migraine and bloated stomach, bad day for me. Cook porridge for today, took medicine and rest. The pill has fast effect, feeling much better. Hopefully tonight can have sound sleep. ZzzzZZzzz

今早，睡到自然醒，还赖床，迟迟不想离开被窝。 到古迹区一趟，我想找一栋房子。路上车不多，我慢慢兜。终于给找着了。在那里逗留了一个多小时，拍了很多照片。没力气了，肚子好饿，要找吃的。乔治市里，找吃很方便，可是要找停车位，可没那么简单。兜了几条街，算了，到别的餐馆去打包。 近几天，胃不太舒服，胃涨风，已经好几天没设么食欲了。今天还是没起色，但却很想吃大餐。除了打包午餐，还有甜点，豆腐花，cookies，cheese cake，蛋糕，肉干。。。 都是我爱吃的，今天就尽情地吃吧，把我的胃口找回来。 嘻嘻！！

I don't know how I sprained my ankle. It was very minor sprain, I won't feel any pain if I do not twist my foot. Initially, I thought it will go away after few days. But, it has been a week, not recover yet. :( Finally, I went to get treatment from Chinese masseur. The masseur grab and press and rub... The strength on certain acupuncture point make me feel numb. :P He told me some tricks and have to apply the ointment. Can not workout for a week.. I had skip gym for past a week, another week to go... hhmm.. no need wake up too early in the morning for gym, take a break... :D

Oh no!!!.. New hike in my weight!! I lost control of my diet. :( Before move to new house, I was very busy with the preparation, and I had lost 3kg. Since moved into new house, I eat a lot. I stock up a lots of desserts and titbits in my fridge and kitchen. :P dessert - cheese cake, top is cream cheese, bottom sponge cake the cheese taste superb after chill in fridge. dessert - chocolate moist cheese cake taste of chocolate is strong, I love it, not too sweet. Whenever I cook for myself, it will be a bit tricky. Every time, the portion can be cater for 2 meals. Some time cook after work, I will over eaten. hee.. So, no more cooking during weekday. Cooking during weekend is more relax, more time to prepare, then I can dine for lunch and dinner. ;) I never stop workout, but over eaten is the reason of weight gain. :P Time to back to balance diet!!

Early morning went for trekking at Pantai Keracut. Initial small gang became big gang, 13 of us!! 1 hour plus of the trekking from the entrance, to reach our destination. Very thanks to a thoughtful member to prepare fruits and sandwich for us, just in time to feed the starving stomach. :) We visited the Turtle Sanctuary, the little turtle caught everyone eyes. They are very cute!! morning sky and jetty little turtles @ sanctuary, they are tooo... cute! ~~ More photos of here ~~ After having lunch, not feeling any tired.. weird uh, after trekking, still felt fresh. OK then, housekeeping. Spent 3 hours doing the chaos. Aiyo.. consequence of having a house, so many things and so big place to sweep. Previously, I only need to house kept a room, now I have much bigger place to take care of. After a tiring day, laying on sofa, watching TV, FB-ing, blogging, reading paper... Later will be the time with my bed time pals...ZzzZZzzz my lovely bed time pals

Very frustrated with boss. Last week he said go for plan A, try the solution, if working then deliver the outcome this week. Today in the discussion, he looked surprise as I not yet deliver the outcome. What the hell I had discussion with him, to go over all the impact on the changes, and he decide to go for the least changes. Now he wanna go for the hard way. Said he got me wrong, thought that I was talking about next phase enhancement. WHAT!!!! So, he did not pay attention at all in the discussion?? That was 1 to 1 discussion, if he not pay attention at all, then wasting all my effort!! He always working on other things when people talking to him, and I asked for his attention, he said he was listening, while the eyes on laptop, the fingers typing on keyboard. Hhmmh!!! He was listening, but not process it, so, simply gave me a lousy decision? When he is talking and people is doing other thing and listening, he will ask people to pay attention!! See!! This is privilege of t...

This is the easiest baking recipe that I have ever tried. ingredient - almond flake and powder mix both together (no need water) and place in baking plate bake till golden color.. tada... DONE! Very simple! Hee... The almond flake is crunchy. ;)

一个人的双人床，总觉得那张双人床太大了。每晚临睡前，会把另一粒枕头与抱枕摆两旁，把范围缩小。陪我入眠的，有我的 无辜小熊 。宁静的环境与温暖舒适的被窝，让我睡得好安稳。没有失眠的理由了！ 家，一个让我自由自在的空间。累了，就赖在沙发上。悃了，就倒头睡个午觉。饿了，到厨房弄个简单的一餐。 家，一个让我放松身心的地方。忙了一整天，这是一个休息站。风带来了凉意，瞭望绿油油的山坡草地，犹如置身在渡假高原。 安乐的家。

I am testing my woks. I got a few woks, as gift when I bought the electrical stove. Maybe I don't know how to use it, I tried 2 of them, each time cooking, the dishes stick on them easily. I used more oil, was still the same. Should I get a new set of non stick wok? Maybe let me cook more and do more experiments.

I had have a very good sleep now. A very comfortable bed, quiet environment. Err.. not too quiet, but at least there is no noise from inside the house, except some noise from the road, not very irritating la.. I still can have tight sleep. ;) Try to cook in the kitchen, not bad, kitchen utensils are all in handy places. Simple meal done and provide me yummy lunch and dinner. :D steam fish and potato fried egg Can't find some of my things.. wondering which box I had put them... slowly unpack my stuffs...

A tooth was pain, went to dentist, she told me I have to do root canal treatment. The hole in the tooth is too deep, not able to do filling anymore. :( The treatment was half way but need to discard. There was a huge crack in tooth, root canal won't prevent the infection in future. No choice, have to extract it. One good news, there is a hidden wisdom tooth, it might able to come out after the extraction. :P Phew... cost of extraction is much lesser that root canal treatment. Lucky me. Doctor gave me one day MC to rest. The pain come after anesthetic gone, took pain killer and fall sleep... ZZzzzZzzz... Sigh... the wound still bleeding, have to take ice cream to cold it down.

15-May, this is the DAY, the day that my dream come true. I moved into my new home. After 10 years of working hard, finally I got my dream home!! It was a very long wait. Since the SnP signing on October last year, went thru the hassle of lawyer and renovation, after 7 ~ 8 months of looking forward for the day to come........................... The morning, last preparation before I hang the red cloth on my door, I was a bit nervous and lots lots lots of tiredness. The packing - moving - unpacking had been done progressively since 3 weeks ago, I moved some stuffs to new home everyday. The tiredness was much more than the excitement. But seeing my family came from far for the house warming, the happiness filled in atmosphere, I feel comfort to have family with me at that moment. :) And also thanks all friends for your wishes. cosy living room my room ~~ More photos of my HOME . ~~

Housekeeping is done!! My new house is now clean and no dust... maybe still a little bit. :P Before this, I can not stay at my home for too long hours, it was too dusty, caused me sneezing. The renovation contractor help me to get an hourly maid to help me clean my home. I spent my days packing and unpacking. Packing from current room to new home. Adoi.. How come I got so many things in my cabinet?? Current room only have 1 cabinet, I had moved my stuffs to new home since 2 weeks ago, everyday move 2 bags to new place, but after 2 weeks, I still can not finish packing. I never notice I have stacked so many things in cabinet. :P Counting down for 15-May...

Mom was asking me to go back home town during Labor Day holiday. I wonder why she so urge to get me back home. Maybe the last time I back home was CNY, it was too long I did not back home, too busy with my house renovation mah.. The day before I drove back, she told me she wanna go shopping, ask me to fetch her and give opinion wor... I had become fashion consultant to my parent. haha.. They need my suggestion on choosing the cloths to prepare for my sister's wedding in September. Still very long time, right? My parent too excited gua.. early early prepare the cloths. :P Since my dad was off from work and lots of sales in shopping mall, my mom dragged him along to the mall for shopping. Not really have any idea what should my dad wear on the big day. He always in T-shirt and pants. After 3 hours of trials and changes, finally he paid for: coat, batik and2 long sleeves shirts. :P wahaha.. I feel proud to do make over on my dad, never see him dress up like this before. T...

Weekday, switch my house keeping time to morning, before I go to work. Normally, morning will be my work out time - jog at park or go to gym. Now, spare 45 minutes to 1 hour for house cleaning. This morning I had done the living room, quite easy, cause no furniture yet. :P Kitchen will be hectic, need to clean each shelf of the cabinet. I need to spend few days on it, I guess. Hopefully, in next post, I can put up the cozy home photos to share with you all. ;)

The day began at 8am. Cleaning the room.. still... sigh.. Although yesterday I had clean once, but still got dust. :( Contractor said help me to clean, but didn't really helping a lot. I have to redo, I found out he just simply wipe lo, not really make the stain away. Done for 3 rooms and 2 toilets. Argh... still got living room and kitchen. I really wanna quit, too tired. My shoulders, hands and thighs very painful now. When can all the chaos will finish?? The day end at 6pm.

The day began at 8am. Cleaning start from the room, once started cleaning, I found out that no matter how hard I clean, the dust still flying around. :( There was a worker still working at kitchen, sharpening the mosaic produced dust. Sigh... the schedule slipped. The works have been delayed for a week, the contractor promised to be done before today, but still can not complete. Tomorrow still have things to be done. I can not fully clean my home if their work not finish. But somehow, I have to clean some corners, get ready for furniture and electrical that had been arranged to be deliver today. So.. today, I got bed and mattress, dining table, curtain, washing machine, TV and refrigerator. Yeah yeah... don't know when I can get my sofa to be deliver yet.. Oh ya.. I got a surprise free gift, a vacuum cleaner from electrical shop. That day I was just kidding and asked the salesman if I can get it as free gift, but he did not promise anything. Haha.. glad when saw they del...

I need to slow down my pace. I almost fainted today. I was busy with my house thingy, till no time for lunch. I felt sudden blackout when stand up from squatting, then only I realized I need to eat and have rest. Since morning, took some kuih , till 3pm only took my lunch. Went to few places in town with my renovation contractor, final shopping for renovation to the completion. After this, I have to slow down my pace, since I have one month before I can formally move in. I can slowly shop for others. Counting down for a month...

The house renovation and moving preparation really very hectic and tiring for me. I know no one can help me on this matter, I have to settle every single thing by myself. I feel the pressure of doing decision. First house, no experience at all. When facing the multiple options, don't know how to decide or worried if my decision correct or not... Always talk to myself, like this not bad ar.. if do like that also can wor.. err.. then which one to choose??? Luckily my renovation contractor is quite helpful, give me a lot of suggestions, analyze the cons and pros. Today, I went to check out my house after work, stayed there for 1 hour plus, chatting with contractor. I feel relief a bit after chat. Owning a house, is a very big matter in my life, too big for me to keep it to myself. I need to share the story or what have I been thru with someone. Thanks for you who have listen to me. and share your opinion with me. :)

No more mood to deal with my new house thingy now, after mom ordered me to move in on mid May. Initially, I am very keen to settle all the necessary stuffs, every weekend out from home early in the morning, go here and there, seeking household things, all I wish is to settle all in time, for me to move in before May. And now, I have to pay and setup everything, but can not stay there yet. 15 May... A long wait for the day to come..

I hate it!!! Mom just called, said I can only move into my new house at mid May.. sob.. sob... why need to wait for so long wor... I bear the payment, but she just can not understand it. Every bill or interest is on going for the house, but leave it empty. Such a brilliant idea to ask the "ang kong" !!! May be I will just move in when everything ready, no need to let her know.....

2nd week of house renovation. Good progress, most of the things already in place. Wiring, painting, doors has been done. I went to workshop to check my cabinet too, in finishing state, coming week will be install in my house. So many things to do. Although I am getting the basic stuffs, but it has caused me super exhausted. Spend most of my weekend outside, whole body aching at night. :S Today think of continue shopping after lunch, but I am too tired, give up the plan. Need to have some rest... Hope the chaos will end soon!!

A very busy weekend again. Settle the things for my home. On leave again on Friday, so that I can have 3 days to do my stuff. 3 days in a row, I visited Homedec, till the sales person there greet me, "oh, you are here again today.." :P The timing is just so right for me, my house is having renovation, and here come the exhibition. Yeah.. I bought lots of things for my home, and of course, spent A LOT TOO!!! Worth the spend, feel so GREAT, able to hunt for so many stuffs: big or small, hard or soft, color or plain, long or short... Oh.. help me, how am I get thru all these decision making??!!! This routine started since last weekend, I also took leave last Friday and had 3 days to do treasure hunt for my home. :P So, this is second week. It is amazing that I still can have time to blog. heee.... Actually, I am very very exhausted, weekend but no rest at all, daytime hunting around in the island and mainland. Night time checking the info and evaluate what and which ...

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26-Sept-2009 First viewing, love the surrounding, low density, quite. The unit, quite spacious for 850 sqft, well maintain. 27-Sept-2009 Place the booking, paid 1% as earnest fee. Looking for Bank Loan Prepare document for bank loan application. Met few bankers, some come to me, some I go to the bank. Not too hassle, lock down with the lowest interest package. For next 4 Months Not a pleasant experience. Dealing with lawyer to get the Sales & Purchase Agreement and Loan Agreement to be done. Dealing with lawyer (or more specifically, the clerk of lawyer) is really an unpleasant experience. The process is the thing that I do not know how to handle, that's why paid for profession to follow up. Every time, call her to check out the status, never give me acceptable update, always have thousand of excuses to drag it. Is it really very difficult to get the thing done? How many months it will need? Every time I called up, give me the same status update. Logically, if every time...

This morning, starring at calendar, anything special about the date? Oh ya! Today is 10th anniversary of my working day. Back to year 2000, I was first day at work. Just finished the study in university, become software engineer. I can still remember the first day, a gang of fresh graduations meet in the meeting room. :) 10 years had past, what has been changed? First job in Penang. Learn a lot, and the knowledge become fundamental for my career. Second job in KL, unforgotten experiences, very hectic lifestyle, long working hour, my health spoiled badly. Third job, back to Penang. Yeah, back to normal life, go to work on time, back home on time. The best boss I ever have. :) After work, spend some time on my hobby. Now, I am in 4th company, an MNC. I works for 5th years here. Previously, worked in SME, thought of switch to managerial post in MNC. Things did not turn out like it suppose to be (as what I had been told during interview, been cheated...). After years in this comp...

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Work.. work.. work.. The days were packed with tasks. Non stop working once step into office, till the end of day. Sit still in front of computer, fingers clicking on the keyboard and mouse. My shoulder was very very stiff, I can feel my muscles tearing, very painful. But I can not stop, I need to rush to meet the deadline. I squeezed 4 days of workload into 2 days. I can not sleep well and can not sleep tight at night, had difficulty to fall sleep, turning on bed.. wake up very early, not enough sleep, but need to work longer hour to get the things done.. my health condition become worse, can not last for many days, feel sick. Aaarrrhh... facing problems, need to trouble shooting, oh no, time ticking... haih... found root cause, got the solution, well time up for this week, continue next week!! My next week schedule will be affected. Don't care. I do all my best already. I expected the delay of the schedule, it is a cycle of every projects. But the boss still put in ve...

Happy Birthday TO ME!!! And thousand thanks to friends that sent wishes to me. I appreciate all best wishes. Thanks again!! Had a gathering lunch with ex-colleagues at Salsas Restaurant. Yeah, we had great time, enjoy the food and chit chatting. We tried to recall the name of other in our ex-company, we wondered what had happen to the company now, we talked about our work, we criticized bosses. :P At the end of the session, suddenly, someone mentioned today is my birthday... Ssshhh.. this is not the intention for this gathering. Anyway, thanks for the wishes from you all, and a birthday card from lovely couple. :) my set lunch: soup, main course, drink and dessert feel so warm when get the card from the couple. Met buddy at Gurney Plaza and hang around for a while. Ha!! I got 2 slices of cake for my birthday at Manila Place. :P yummy.. marble cheese and chocolate banana What is my wish? Erm... Not really have any wish in mind. Wishing for a dream will not make it come true, but...

I can not have good sleep ever since the eve of 9th CNY. In Penang, it is a big event. During the eve, the fire cracker everywhere, very very noisy, from 8pm till 1~2am. I totally can not sleep, even put on earplug, not able to block the noise. Fire cracker has been ban for years, I wonder how come there is still so many fire crackers in our country. It would be better if the people donate the money to the poor, instead of burning it. These few days, I tried to go to bed earlier, but can not sleep, turning here and there for 2~3 hours before sleep. Still, wake up early in the morning. Tired. Last night sleep less than 4 hours. :S Long weekend, I can have good reessstttt......

I back to work on 4th CNY, office was very quite, lots of people not yet back to work. No boss, no support phone call, no meeting, no discussion session, sound relaxing uh. But I have deadline to meet, can't be too relax though. Quite office, I can concentrate on my assignment. :) Get all the things done, then back on time... or maybe earlier. ;) hee... Most of the people back to work today. Boss is around, ask this and that, need to provide update and info. My phone on desk start ringing, my IM pop up now and then, back to usual working atmosphere... again.. Anyway, Friday is public holiday, looking forward for long weekend. hee.. ;)

Kek Lok Si during CNY is amazing, as it will be light up by thousands of lanterns and light bulbs. This year, I was there earlier, before the night fall, took lots of day time photos. The brightness of the sky was just nice for photo shooting. We took photos from day time till night fall. :D thousand of lanterns God Mercy ~~ More photos here ~~ ~~ link to photos that I took 2 years ago from this post ~~ Another event during CNY, the cultural and heritage celebration at George Town UNESCO World Heritage Site. I was impressed by the traditional handicraft exhibited at Khoo Kongsi and old time decoration at Cheah Kongsi. traditional handicraft exhibition show time.. show time!! ~~ More photos here ~~

12th Feb Last working day before CNY. I had been busy for few days, rushing to close the project's deadline before CNY long holiday, very tired. Working before long holiday is not relaxing at all. Additional work loads, last minute requests, special assignments... exhausted. Dismissed from work earlier, drove back to hometown, before the horrible traffic jam. Sweating.. My home town was extremely hot!!! The moment I stepped out from my car, I was like been heating in oven. vaporizing. Once reached home, helping mom to prepare for next day reunion dinner. Oouch.. body pain.. hot.. sweat.. Every year need to do all these chaos. Not many members in the family, but the huge amount of food can feed 20 person, I think. Not able to change the mind set of old folks and their diet, eat too much until burst! Every year, we have almost the same dishes for reunion dinner , and every year, I complained the same things. :s huge amount of sea cucumber, guess can feed how many person?? biig...

Saturday morning started in very good mood, I had a tight sleep the night before, and very sweet dream too. After gym, I went to Queensbay Mall, it is RED!! Yeah, Chinese New Year approaching. amazing paper cutting art, big 福 with 12 Chinese horoscopes. For me, I do not have of CNY mood. I bought my new cloths during Xmas sales. I was away from home, do not help mom in spring cleaning or baking. I do not buy ornament for decoration. I am NOT looking forward to go back home. I am wondering what if I do not go back home? My CNY at home won't have reunion atmosphere, but very tense and annoying noise. The week before CNY break, I need to rush for project deadline. Thought of go to have a hot air balloon ride, but when arrived at Quayside, then only noticed that was part of the property project launching. No chance to ride the balloon, it was out of gas. Hang around the show rooms, see the new interior design. Hot air balloon from far, too bad I do not have chance to ride it....

The weather is extremely hot. If you walk under the sun during lunch time, you can feel how it burn your skin! At night is very hot too, after shower, still sweating. Sit still under the high speed fan. Erm.. the air flow is hot too. The best partner now is ... air-conditioner. :)

A week is gone, so fast!! This week is going to end soon. Maybe I was too busy for the whole week, the time fly. 2nd work week of the year. After a holiday season, everything is heating up now, project team become very active again. Workload increase a lot, new year, but I still seeing the old problems. Submit the work or commit the date, but without proper coordination, the dependency item been left behind. Sigh.. same old story, and I complain the same thing. My feeling? Nothing, numb already. After complain, I still need to work, so I better complain less and complete my work. Let see something happy in this week. A course mate came to Penang, from Singapore. Few of us had a small gathering dinner. Long time no see, chatting for 3 hours!!! Remembrance Uni life, recalling other course mate's name, how their look like... gosh, some of the name or the look has been vanish from my mind. How long has it been since we graduate? 10 years!!! Some of us still keep in touch, s...