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什么是真爱？看了《画皮》，你就会感动。真爱，就是宁愿牺牲自己，来成全对方。 有位朋友告诉我：爱情，除了得与失，成全也是另一个圆满的结局。 《画皮》，是一部凄美的爱情故事。没有恐怖的画面，反而非常感人，但故事情节有点慢。我看的是粤语配音版，我想原音华语版应该更能打动人心。 画皮 - Painted Skin 男人是多情的，有一个贤妻，但还是无法抵抗艳丽妖精的迷惑。虽然行动上没有出轨，精神上却一次又一次的越轨。 女人是敏感的，妻子开始察觉到不寻常的迹象，她无法阻止，唯有割爱。 爱情是没有对错的，欲望会让人疯狂与不安，可能只是短暂的欢愉，还是心甘情愿的醉在其中。 爱情是矛盾的。明知道不应该，但还是无法阻止感情的付出，理智压抑不到爱情。

I collected my blood test report yesterday. I do annual blood test, all the while the result very good, but this time, there are some flaws in the report. My cholesterol exceed the normal range and have symptom of thyroid. I had been advice to get further checkup in hospital. So today, I was in hospital, waited for 5 hours there to consult the specialist. What a long waiting. Luckily, she said I should not be having thyroid problem after reading my blood test report. But, I got family history, so, she advice me to have a follow up check up after 3 months. For past a year, I constrains my emotion. Most of the time, I do not express it on my face. Sometime, I was in deep depress, but I still wear a smiling face. I do not want people around me to notice it. Sometime, I will just keep quiet all the day. Sometime, I will eat a lot, thought of can ease the pain. Sometime, I eat a lot of chocolate, hope it can give me some relief. I cry a lot at night, that is the only time I can free ...

突然间，我觉得一切都变得无所谓了。 和朋友聊聊天，提起往事，竟然什么感觉也没有了。 以前发生过的事，再也无所谓谁对、谁错， 不再执着要知道真相。 以后会发生什么事，我无法知道，也不想去预测未来。 现在的我，只想让自己活在快乐中。生命是短暂的，活在当下， 有些事情，是我因该做的，但会让我不快乐，就好像我的工作，已经到了瓶颈。 工作只变成了责任，我的任务就是把它完成。 有些事情，是我不因该沉迷的，但我却无怨无悔的享受着那感觉。满足中有罪恶，感性超越了理性。不晓得这会维持多久，没有承诺的未来，我珍惜我可以拥有的每一刻。 今天，心情非常的平静。什么事都不做，什么都不想，一整天下来，只窝在房间里，看戏剧，看杂志，听音乐，和远方的朋友IM聊天，写写部落格。

Now, it is 1am!!! Why I am still awake?? I am so headache. I don't want to be awake. Actually, I went to sleep before 11pm, but I was awake by the noise, the noise of banging door, not once, but several times. I have had very bad quality of sleeping this few days. I was very very tired during day time, and think of getting sleep earlier at night but every night will awake after fall sleep for one hour or less. :( Then, it will be a sleepless night for me for the rest of the night. I feel so exhausted. I am taking pill to help me to get better sleep... again.. sigh.. But, it will not help as the root cause is not from my mental problem, it is from the noise. I wondering if need such a strong arm to close the door?? If I am back at home, my mum sure will scolded me badly. We are not allow to bang the door, it is annoying and according to old folks, it will chase away the good spirit at home. I wish I could have a peaceful home, I wish I can have a good dream (if only I can fall slee...

My day full of activities. Wake up in the morning, went to gym. Haha.. only me in the gym room, I was the VIP of the day. :P After gym, met up with friends for lunch at E-Gate's Tao Cuisine. 5 of us, we spend 2 hours enjoyed our meals. ;) wow.. very full after the buffet lunch, ending the lunch with a scope of fruity-tutti ice cream. yummy... Driving back to home town. Oh no, accident on the bridge, trapped in the jam for half an hour. Another frustration thing was my car's air-cond not in good condition, hot hot hot... got the air, but is hot air, and the whirling sound make me felt eerie. After exit from highway, directly sent my car to workshop. At night, attended a wedding dinner of a friend, eat again. My lunch had not digested yet, but I still filled my tummy with dinner, else, what should I do during wedding dinner? drinking? No la, I am not alcoholic, I can not drink much. the bride school mates The wedding day of my friend was on Sunday, so, I dropped by her house ...

“钱不够用”，想必是大家的心声吧？有什么比没有钱更穷？最穷的是身边没有一个爱你的人。 钱不够用2 妻子，因为对丈夫的爱，可以为他顶罪，为他挪用公款，为了他而受法律制裁。她没有 因为他穷，而离开他。 母亲，因为帮不到生意失败的孩子，自责自己没用，竟然想以乞讨筹钱。但是，病魔缠身的母亲，却像人球般，被踢来踢去。看到这里，我已经哭成泪人了。母爱的伟大，竟然大至牺牲生命，也在所不惜。 孩子有难时，母亲就是最好的救世主。当母亲无助时，孩子为她做了些什么呢？我庆幸我父母都还身强体壮，愿他们健康快乐。有时我会觉得我无用，无法给他们更舒适的生活。或许我想太多了,他们最想看到的，是孩子们的幸福快乐。 梁智强的戏，以搞笑方式来呈现社会现象，有许多暴笑情节。也有非常感性的画面来讲述亲情，每一次都会让我看得流泪。整部戏，真是让我又笑又哭。

It was Merdeka holiday, I had a long weekend, 3 days off. My parent and I went to KL to visit my brother, he was moving into his new house. Day1 I drove to KL with my parent, as my brother moved into his new house. My parent are so happy, even my dad's foot is not recovered yet, but he insists to drive. Well, as long as he is happy, I will not argue with him, I was driving when we almost reached KL, leading them to my uncle house. I called my sister to meet me, then we, the younger.. hee.. went for shopping!!! My parent went to meet up with their friends. It's Merdeka Sales everywhere. We went to The Garden / Mid Valley. Finally, I bought a Fossil watch for myself. I wanted to buy a watch since last year, yeah.. this time, I made it. This Fossil shop has so many collections, I choose one from my favorite 3 pieces of watch, it cost me RM360, I like it so much. :) Fossil watch Mid Valley were so so crowded. We targeted to buy cloths, shoes and accessories... When girls come to ...