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Why I always have endless tasks on hands? One haven't done, boss assigned another one. And the next day, assigned a new task again, seems like he forgot I still have non completed assignment. :( Oh ya hor.. He recalled, "never mind, that one can wait, do this first." Oh oh.. I hate that excuse. Wait wait wait... eventually, I need to complete them somehow. The longer the time, the more tasks accumulate. He never consider how many effort I needed to complete the task, always think I can do magic, all task can be completed by fingers click. I extended my working hours, try to complete the assignment by the end of the day. Everyday, I will have to deal with many unexpected issues, if I do not solve them within a day, the next day might have new issues, and next and next.... arghhhhh.... headache.... I am so tired, I feel so weak, mentally and emotionally weak. Recently, people around me keep on telling me that I look so pale. I think I really look terrible. I know...

I like this song very very much. It is a theme song of the movie "Music & Lyrics". I watched the movie yesterday, after it had been saved in my hard disk for a very long time. :P Way Back Into Love - HughGrant / HaleyBennett I’ve been living with a shadow overhead I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I’ve been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I’ve been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can’t make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs I know that it’s out there There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I’m open t...

只因为某人不如你所愿爱你，并不意味着你不被别人所爱。 Just because someone doesn't love you as you wish, it doesn't mean you're not loved with with all his/her being. 没有人值得你流泪，值得你流泪的人是不会让你哭的。 No person deserves your tears, and who deserves them won't make you cry.

It has been 2 weeks I did not go for gym. Saturday, I went to gym with my house mate, worked out for around 1 hour. Sunday, I went for hiking, at Moon Gate. Ha ha.. so nice, sweat a lot, relief all my miserable feeling about works. For the rest of the day, I stayed at home read novel, watched movies and sleeping. I slept for couple hours during day time, end up at night can not sleep tight. :( A boring weekend, relax and rest.

我有多重人格。 在家，我是个孤僻与坏脾气的女儿。 在朋友面前，我是个好脾气的人。 在同事眼中，我是个有责任感的好员工。 在寂寞的夜里，我会变歇斯理底，一切压抑着的悲痛涌上心头，痛苦的呼吸，放声大哭，在泪痕满脸中入睡。 我有充满活力的一面。爬山、远足、打球、足球。。。 我有狂野的一面。 彻夜狂欢、饮酒。 但，有多少的人，会看到我最脆弱的一面？认识我的人，都以为我很坚强。殊不知，那坚强的外表下，我有时也很无奈。一个人在外头，一个人住，远离家人，远离家庭的庇护。我不得不坚强，我要自我保护。我渴望爱，但不会强求。

I have been so so so busy, since past 3 weeks, since I back to work from KK vacation. At first, I thought I was busy because lots of tasks need to follow up after went off for a week. But then, the week after and this week, I still very Very VEry VERY BUSY... The tasks is never ending. I works from morning till evening. Most of the day, I go back home around 8pm. Still early?? Not for me la, previous day, I will off from office around 6pm. :s The tasks causing me getting crazy. At one time, doing few tasks. Beside my core task, I have to train user of the application, any kind of support works, planning of process strategy of new project, documentation, meeting, discussion... I almost short of breath at my cubicle. My boss still got lots of tasks assign to me, I told him to wait, or else do it himself. I can not complete all tasks at once la... I do not have thousand arms, I only have 2 hands, and my foot can not work for me. sigh.. May be I am too tired, I am very lazy to go ...

How will you define a support team? A group of professional that troubleshoot and solve the problem reported by end user. But, what I encountered was a support team that need the support from END USER. Today, I stayed quite late in the office, caused I was detained by the so called support team. :S Same issues, I sent mail to report it, someone called up to reconfirm, then, 2 persons came to ask for detail. I explained via mail, clarified through the phone, and told them the process face to face. Within one hour time... problem solved? naahh.... Their boss and the team came to me AGAIN!!! He asked me to explain the issue to him AGAIN!!!! He asked if I can stay back with them and troubleshoot the issue, without me, they will only look into the problem on next working day, that will be on next Monday. I really fed up. I already missed my deadline, due to the problemSSS reported since morning till evening, hope they can solve it before Monday. But they only able to look into the ...

周笔畅 - 一周年 又 又是一年之后 又走到这路口 转角的咖啡香 还依旧 但是你 最后你没有 你说的 在我背后 没有 没出现在那头 我把 你的短讯都删了 感觉要好了 陌生人的一个小动作 却让我 又想起你很久 我把 你的照片锁起了 可是你的生日 我还记得 我以为很忙 尽量不要想 就是遗忘 不过一年后 我们终于 变了朋友 等不到你生日时候 抱着你 唱首歌 你看我 还是那么的温柔 却是朋友的朋友 再想不出什么借口 还有要求 不过一年后 我们终于 只是朋友 回忆里有相同镜头 现实是 不同出口 说过的 你是否 还会记得 你说过的永久 难道是友情比爱情永久 朋友 YEA YEA YEA 不过一年后 我们终于 变了朋友 等不到你生日时候 抱着你 唱首歌 你看我 还是那么的温柔 却是朋友的朋友 再想不出什么借口 还有要求 不过一年后 我们终于 只是朋友 回忆里有相同镜头 现实是 不同出口 说过的 你是否 还会记得 你说过的永久 难道是友情比爱情永久 朋友 YEA YEA YEA 被你爱过我很快乐 - 卓文萱 我们肩靠肩的站着 看着不停流动的河 这阵子麻烦你了 被我的爱拉住了 终于你要走了 还是想叫你亲爱的 而自由是你最爱的 回忆不断倒转着 时间却又不停的 彩排我们转过身 被你爱过我真的很快乐 被你爱过我更懂幸福了 你紧紧抱我 温柔的我好痛 突然我才懂 你不是不爱我 记得一定要好好的 不管遇见了什么人 你在我耳边说着 声音却飞的好远 我也终于勇敢了 被你爱过我真的很快乐 被你爱过我更懂幸福了 你紧紧抱我 温柔的我好痛 突然我才懂 你不是不爱我 被你爱过我真的很快乐 被你爱过我更懂幸福了 你紧紧抱我 温柔的我好痛 突然我懂 你没有我更辽阔 被你爱过我真的很快乐 只是成长要经过悲伤的 现在我相信 那最深刻的爱 不一定会陪着我们 到老的

Today, get to know from newspaper, there was a train plunged into Padas River, Kota Kinabalu. Two killed in the incident. This is the train that I supposed to take when I was in KK, on the way to Padas River for White Water Rafting. But, during my trip, the train was not operate on that day. I guess they want to avoid such incident, as it was raining heavily a few days before. 26th December, 2004. The tsunami hits Penang island. Nobody believe this will happen. I was not in the island, but received call from friends, asked if I was safe? I was so shocked and weeping when watched the news on TV. The locations are so close, as I been there before. And yet, they are so far, as when the incidents happen, I was not there. I should feel thankful that I am still in one piece today. I appreciate that I wake up and see the sunshine everyday. I will make my every moment valuable.

今天，收到一则简讯，愿与读者分享。 你知道人的两只眼睛的关系吗？ 它们一起眨，一起动，一起看，一起睡，尽管它们从没有见过对方。 这就是友谊的真谛。生活中没有朋友，那是空洞的。 当大部分人都在关注你飞得高不高时，只有少部分人关心你飞得累不累。。。 这就是友情，在忙也要照顾好自己。 朋友虽不常联系却一直惦念，天凉记得多穿衣。

The Water Horse, or most known as Loch Ness Monster, is a legend creature. There will be only one water horse existed in the world. It will die after laying an egg via asexual reproduction. The baby became orphan since it hatched from egg. The little boy found the egg at shore. He brought it home. Since then, the two lonely heart became close friends. The creature grown up very fast, it had been brought to the lake and separated from the boy. The scenery of this film is very amazing, the sky so blue, the mountains, and the lake is so calm. The shooting location is in New Zealand. Someday, I must visit that place. :) The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep Friend is someone that you can trust, you can share your happiness and sadness with. Friend is the one that you will wanna talk with whenever you have a thought blinking in your mind. " Walk beside me and be my friend ".

I received a gift in the early of morning. My friend sent me the gift, as an appreciation of helping him in a charity event in January, Tzu Chi Annual Blessing Ceremony . It is a simple but meaningful gift. There are 3 packets of nutritious drinks, 2 red packets with blessing phrases and coins. The cherish day began. :) The gift from Tzu Chi In the evening, I went for karaoke with friends. It had been a long long time since my last karaoke session, which was a marathon karaoke during New Year countdown . ;) I found myself became unfamiliar with the remote control, slow when choosing the song, can not decide which song to sing, unfamiliar with most of the top song. My friend had the same feeling as mine. :P We sang for almost 4 hours. This was another gift for me today, someone treated us the karaoke as we celebrate his birthday. haha... I did not expect him to treat us, but he refused to take our payment. ;) Today is a beautiful day for me. The day started with a lovely gift, ...

多久没写信了？现在是e时代，都用电脑文件，通过网络转达信息，很少人还会再提起笔写信吧？我没有交过笔友，所以没有太多写信的必要。小学毕业后，偶尔还会写写信给旧同学。那时电脑或手机都不普偏，信件是联系友谊的管道，还可收集邮票。 最近，又提笔写信了。写下想对某人说的话；写下无法当面对他说出的话；写下可能没有机会对他说的话；写下许多疑惑；写下许多感受。。。写着写着，希望把憋在心里已久，又无法对人诉说的话，都写下来，当做是对无形的对象说了，当做是诉苦了。心情好些吗？可能好些吧。。。 求学时期曾经试过，把悲愤写在纸上，然后撕碎扔掉，心情就好起来了。现在已不太管用了，人生阅历越多，烦恼越多越复杂，并无法随手扔掉。 写了好几封信，可能收信人无法收到的信，因为信件还收在抽屉里。我没有勇气送出去，我害怕。。。 我怕连淡淡的友谊会因此而终止。我害怕我无法再承受失去的感觉，真的害怕。。。 我变得那么的懦弱了。。。

I had just submitted my income tax through the e-filing system. I took couple of hours to sort out the receipts, the insurances statements, investments statements... I hate calculation and numbers. I wanna get rid of it fast. I got the EA form 2 days ago, I am glad I already settled it and not need to worry anymore. As past few years, I no need to pay extra, because my company will deduct the tax from my salary each month, and it is enough to cover the annual payable tax. Indeed, the LHDN still owed me some amount, but I will not claim it back as the amount is not that much.

Today, my department is having Badminton Tournament. We were gathered at Jubilee Hall at 1.45pm. The participants been group into 4 teams, each team had 10 players, 5 doubles per team (3 men double, 1 women double, 1 mix double). And the team name.. ehem.. 2 of the team were using quite a normal name, Smasher vs Ultimate. And the other 2 teams, still in the dilemma of election, Reinventing II vs Just Change It. (BN vs DAP) :P haha.. Which team I was in? The opposition. ;) The shuttlecock on the line I was playing for women double at the first round. I was not a good player, don't know the rules and don't know the techniques. :P My aim was to hit the shuttlecock to opposite field. haha.. I "was" good at badminton before, during my secondary school. That time, Malaysia won the Thomas Cup at 1992. Since then, the sport became so popular for next few years. It was the favorite activity after school hours. I played with my siblings and neighbors, at the alley o...