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人格的分裂

我有多重人格。

在家,我是个孤僻与坏脾气的女儿。

在朋友面前,我是个好脾气的人。

在同事眼中,我是个有责任感的好员工。

在寂寞的夜里,我会变歇斯理底,一切压抑着的悲痛涌上心头,痛苦的呼吸,放声大哭,在泪痕满脸中入睡。

我有充满活力的一面。爬山、远足、打球、足球。。。

我有狂野的一面。 彻夜狂欢、饮酒。

但,有多少的人,会看到我最脆弱的一面?认识我的人,都以为我很坚强。殊不知,那坚强的外表下,我有时也很无奈。一个人在外头,一个人住,远离家人,远离家庭的庇护。我不得不坚强,我要自我保护。我渴望爱,但不会强求。

Comments

Carlson Hoo said…
雙魚座的人性格還滿相的,有時後我也會這樣。
大家努力和加油吧!
Amanda said…
嗨,Carlson。你一个人在他乡,也要坚强,加油喔。如果闹情绪的话,可以找我聊天啦。

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