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多久没写信了?现在是e时代,都用电脑文件,通过网络转达信息,很少人还会再提起笔写信吧?我没有交过笔友,所以没有太多写信的必要。小学毕业后,偶尔还会写写信给旧同学。那时电脑或手机都不普偏,信件是联系友谊的管道,还可收集邮票。

最近,又提笔写信了。写下想对某人说的话;写下无法当面对他说出的话;写下可能没有机会对他说的话;写下许多疑惑;写下许多感受。。。写着写着,希望把憋在心里已久,又无法对人诉说的话,都写下来,当做是对无形的对象说了,当做是诉苦了。心情好些吗?可能好些吧。。。

求学时期曾经试过,把悲愤写在纸上,然后撕碎扔掉,心情就好起来了。现在已不太管用了,人生阅历越多,烦恼越多越复杂,并无法随手扔掉。

写了好几封信,可能收信人无法收到的信,因为信件还收在抽屉里。我没有勇气送出去,我害怕。。。 我怕连淡淡的友谊会因此而终止。我害怕我无法再承受失去的感觉,真的害怕。。。 我变得那么的懦弱了。。。

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