feeling

I can not sleep well for past few days. Sigh.. I thought my sleeping problem had been improved. For past few months, I do not suffer from sleeping problem. I can sleep tight till my alarm wake me up. These few days, I am actually very very tired. Physically and mentally tired, but why can not sleep leh? haih... I tried to go to bed earlier, as early as 10.30pm, but dragged to after 12 mid night, then only fell sleep. Last night, I slept at 2am and woke up before 6am. The whole day in dizziness, and feel like gonna sick. I am burning the aromatherapy lamp with lavender fragrance oil, hope it will help me to relax....

I was woke up quite early on Saturday, go to gym at 8am. I was doing cardio exercises for 1 hour, in sweat. :P Did some weight lifting, read paper while cycling. Then enjoy the jacuzzi before taking bath. Leaving gym and heading to town at 11++am. I wanted to buy some traditional biscuits. The shop has been promoted on TV and paper and blog. It looks very promising. I tried to ask Penangists, but they not aware of the location. That area has a lot of junction,s small roads and one way streets. I parked my car aside at the main road, then scouting around to search for it. I forgot to bring the printed map, so, I walked around based on my memory, tried to match the building with the photos that I saw in the blog. Luckily I found it. It is the flat behind the shoplot, where Tai Tong Dim Sum resided, at Cintra Street. Once the boss saw me, he talked to me in Cantonese. hehe.. I not looks like local people uh.. :P Anyway, the boss is very friendly, gave me some recommendation what to buy. ...

Today have mid year performance review with boss. It's a good communication session. We were reviewing the status of the goals for first half of the years. For me, I am not worried about my performance la. :P I work hard and work smart, fulfill my commitment. I took the chance to express my complication of working here, the usual stuff that I complained a lot in previous blogs. Well, boss not angry, listen with open heart, he said he can understand. I also gave some comments of his working behavior, no offend here, purely feedback to him. The session went very friendly though. :D Let's see at the end of the year, will there be any difference. ;)

Leaving office on time, reached home before 6.30pm. I changed to sport wear, walked to buy dinner, thru and flow in 30 minutes, so nice! Walking is a good exercise too. I actually sweat a lot. I wish I can keep it up, walk to buy dinner everyday, else, no dinner to eat. hehee..

It has been 2 weeks, my heart does not feel good. It will suddenly beating very fast, sometime will pain, and cause me short of breath. Consulted doctor. He asked me lots of question: ~ Drink coffee or tea? No. ~ Work problem? Work Pressure? Not really... ~ Family problem? No. ~ You married yet? No.. bf problem? No.. ~ You starving? No way. (I gain lots of weight recently!!) "Oh.. everything no problem ar, that is a big problem then." :s I was puzzled, is that a problem? He said where got people life has no problem one... After checking my blood pressure and heart beat, is normal! :( So question back to my work again. Doctor try to understand if I have any work pressure. Recently, not really pressure, but lots of tasks, I mean really A LOT of tasks need to be completed, the schedule is very tight. Doctor said that could be the problem, the intense assignments should be reduced, he asked me to talk to my boss. Hmmh!! I grinned in my heart, not a chance, unless I resign from th...

Doing NOTHING at all during weekend. At home town, being couch potato, lying in front of TV, eat, sleep, read, sleep, eat, sleep... Normal meal, junk food, nuts, desserts, apples, oranges, mangosteens, rambutans, dragon fruits... Eat whatever I can grab, sleep whenever I want. No in good mood after the car broke down incident, keep myself in silent mode. Tomorrow is working day, let me have a good dream tonight. zZZZzzzZzzzzzz....

I was driving my auntie's car back to home town, she want my dad to check it out. But the car broke down!! While driving, from rear mirror, I can see smoke appear from somewhere, and the temperature meter pointing at high level. I approached the rest area and park the car. I got out from car at once, gosh.. smoke came out from engine. I was so worried the car will caught on fire, stayed a safe distance from car. I called my dad at once. Oh no.. can not reach him through cell phone or workshop's phone. Sob sob.. I was so helpless, watching the smoke out from car, squat at roadside. Called mom, and she help me to contact dad. Shortly, dad called back and tried to check with me what was happening to the car. Sigh.. he asked me to wait for 30 minutes for engine to cool down, then open the bonnet to check if water tank was empty. Wait there??!!! I wanted to cry... I was asking if he can come to me soon. The answer was so disappointed, said lots of works at workshop, you wait there f...

Pardon me for the non structural post, I was frustrated with my work for the week, after express it, I will feel better, I think... ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ In the past, he was the person who setup all the rules and gates, to make sure the integrity of project. In present, his new team do not compliance to the rules. There are documentations located in consolidated location, there are communication emails sent to respective group. But too bad, usually, people will not be alertness to care about it, or maybe they want to take any chance to violate it, try the luck if they can escape from being caught? The response I got is, "oh.. is there such a rule? I not sure... " I know human brain is not like computer, we can not remember every detail. So the documentations been prepared and located in share directory. Come on, as a degree holder (at least), do I need to feed the engineer every time? Can't they be diligence to get the reference if they have any doubt? ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ ~~ Human mad...