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无所谓

突然间,我觉得一切都变得无所谓了。
和朋友聊聊天,提起往事,竟然什么感觉也没有了。
以前发生过的事,再也无所谓谁对、谁错, 不再执着要知道真相。
以后会发生什么事,我无法知道,也不想去预测未来。
现在的我,只想让自己活在快乐中。生命是短暂的,活在当下,

有些事情,是我因该做的,但会让我不快乐,就好像我的工作,已经到了瓶颈。
工作只变成了责任,我的任务就是把它完成。

有些事情,是我不因该沉迷的,但我却无怨无悔的享受着那感觉。满足中有罪恶,感性超越了理性。不晓得这会维持多久,没有承诺的未来,我珍惜我可以拥有的每一刻。

今天,心情非常的平静。什么事都不做,什么都不想,一整天下来,只窝在房间里,看戏剧,看杂志,听音乐,和远方的朋友IM聊天,写写部落格。

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