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逃离。家

上个周末回家。刚从香港回来，带些手信给父母。
做个脸部护理，剪个亮丽的头发，让自己有个焕然一新的感觉。
如往常，妈会问花了多少钱啦?这个贵吗?那个不便宜吧?又买?不是有了吗?我的金钱价值观与她不同，所以我只是轻描淡写。
我知道，如果再详细谈下去，必定吵架收场，我选择保持沉默。

周日，提早回槟城。或者该说，我是逃离家的。婆婆又哭又闹，很烦!
车子一驶出大马路，我就哭了。
家，不是我的避风港。没有倾诉的对象，没有人了解我，没有我渴望的温馨。如果我不在意这些，我还是会开心的，在自我的空间里,自得其乐，这就是妈口中的孤僻的我吧!

我想有个家!



我想有个家 - 潘美辰

词曲：潘美辰


我想要有个家
一个不需要华丽的地方
在我疲倦的时候 我会想到它

我想要有个家
一个不需要多大的地方
在我受惊吓的时候 我才不会害怕

谁不会想要家
可是就有人没有它
脸上流着眼泪 只能自己轻轻擦

我好羡慕他
受伤后可以回家
而我只能孤单地孤单地 寻找我的家

虽然我不曾 有温暖的家
但是我一样 渐渐的长大
只要心中充满爱 就会被关怀
无法埋怨谁 一切只能靠自己

虽然你有家 什么也不缺
为何看不见你露出笑脸
永远都说没有爱 整天不回家
相同的年纪 不同的心灵
让我拥有一个家
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Trecia said…
若干年前，我也像你一样的心情。我妈妈也像你妈妈一样，金钱价值观和我不一样。家里人多，常常都是吵吵闹闹的。我也像你一样常常都想逃离家里，甚至于在外读书时都不会想家。当时我也认为家不是我的避风港。可是现在当人上了年纪，母亲已不在以后，反而怀念起那个家来，人就是那样矛盾的。
Monday, April 13, 2009 at 10:39:00 PM GMT+8
Amanda said…
Trecia,
我明白，我在外头时，会常常想起家人，会记得他们的喜好，会想回家。但，如果家里常常吵闹，我就受不了。孝亲敬老，我现在做着，以我的能力之内，我不吝啬为他们付出，不论是金钱或精神上的，不论他们认同与否，我无悔。他们开心吗？我不晓得，因为他们很少说好听的话，我就当他们感情含蓄吧。
通常，我把感觉抒发出来，就没事了。谢谢你的留言。
Monday, April 13, 2009 at 11:32:00 PM GMT+8
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