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蓝色忧郁

看了这DVD后,我才明白,原来,我也曾经忧郁过。
忧郁的症状,我都有。。。失眠,心情沉重,对什么都没兴趣,胡思乱想,不开心,厌世。。。等等。
遇到不愉快的事情,总是往心里藏,把不愉快的事情累积着,使得自己开心不起来。

有一段日子,我不只心灵创伤,生理也严重失调了。面对人群时,都装做很开心,和大家嘻哈大笑,但夜深人静时,我一个人躲在被窝里哭泣。哭得累了,哭到睡了。

蓝色病毒 - 证严法师谈忧郁

我可以做的,就是把注意力分散,尽量让自己的时间表排得满满的。周末或假日时,很想和朋友聚一聚,要不然呢,就去运动,好好的出一身汗,心情会轻松很多的。再来呢,就是吃大餐,狂追连续剧,或综艺节目,看到开心的,就笑个饱的,如果是悲剧,就哭个痛快,把所有的不快都发泄了。

很多时候,我不会把自己的懦弱呈现在别人面前,不管是朋友或家人,我总是报喜不报忧。
如果我曾经在你面前崩溃过,哭泣过,我要谢谢你的包容,非常感谢你出现在我的生命中,让我有个依靠。 因为对你的信赖,我可以毫无保留的表露出真我。
我其实并没有你们想象中那么坚强。坚强的外表,只不过是要在社会中立足,而给自己穿上的外套。

要怎样摆脱忧郁呢?以平常心看待这不完美的世界吧。但,何谓的平常心呢?我还在探索着。
要能忍耐,才能活得安然无事。 可以忍到什么地步呢?我不知道我的极限到哪里。

善解,包容,知足,感恩。 以这态度来面对生活,世界就会变得美好了。

朋友,谢谢你们的相伴。衷心感谢!!!

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