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Why I always have endless tasks on hands? One haven't done, boss assigned another one. And the next day, assigned a new task again, seems like he forgot I still have non completed assignment. :( Oh ya hor.. He recalled, "never mind, that one can wait, do this first." Oh oh.. I hate that excuse. Wait wait wait... eventually, I need to complete them somehow. The longer the time, the more tasks accumulate. He never consider how many effort I needed to complete the task, always think I can do magic, all task can be completed by fingers click. I extended my working hours, try to complete the assignment by the end of the day. Everyday, I will have to deal with many unexpected issues, if I do not solve them within a day, the next day might have new issues, and next and next.... arghhhhh.... headache.... I am so tired, I feel so weak, mentally and emotionally weak. Recently, people around me keep on telling me that I look so pale. I think I really look terrible. I know...

I like this song very very much. It is a theme song of the movie "Music & Lyrics". I watched the movie yesterday, after it had been saved in my hard disk for a very long time. :P Way Back Into Love - HughGrant / HaleyBennett I’ve been living with a shadow overhead I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I’ve been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I’ve been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can’t make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs I know that it’s out there There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I’m open t...

只因为某人不如你所愿爱你，并不意味着你不被别人所爱。 Just because someone doesn't love you as you wish, it doesn't mean you're not loved with with all his/her being. 没有人值得你流泪，值得你流泪的人是不会让你哭的。 No person deserves your tears, and who deserves them won't make you cry.

It has been 2 weeks I did not go for gym. Saturday, I went to gym with my house mate, worked out for around 1 hour. Sunday, I went for hiking, at Moon Gate. Ha ha.. so nice, sweat a lot, relief all my miserable feeling about works. For the rest of the day, I stayed at home read novel, watched movies and sleeping. I slept for couple hours during day time, end up at night can not sleep tight. :( A boring weekend, relax and rest.

我有多重人格。 在家，我是个孤僻与坏脾气的女儿。 在朋友面前，我是个好脾气的人。 在同事眼中，我是个有责任感的好员工。 在寂寞的夜里，我会变歇斯理底，一切压抑着的悲痛涌上心头，痛苦的呼吸，放声大哭，在泪痕满脸中入睡。 我有充满活力的一面。爬山、远足、打球、足球。。。 我有狂野的一面。 彻夜狂欢、饮酒。 但，有多少的人，会看到我最脆弱的一面？认识我的人，都以为我很坚强。殊不知，那坚强的外表下，我有时也很无奈。一个人在外头，一个人住，远离家人，远离家庭的庇护。我不得不坚强，我要自我保护。我渴望爱，但不会强求。

I have been so so so busy, since past 3 weeks, since I back to work from KK vacation. At first, I thought I was busy because lots of tasks need to follow up after went off for a week. But then, the week after and this week, I still very Very VEry VERY BUSY... The tasks is never ending. I works from morning till evening. Most of the day, I go back home around 8pm. Still early?? Not for me la, previous day, I will off from office around 6pm. :s The tasks causing me getting crazy. At one time, doing few tasks. Beside my core task, I have to train user of the application, any kind of support works, planning of process strategy of new project, documentation, meeting, discussion... I almost short of breath at my cubicle. My boss still got lots of tasks assign to me, I told him to wait, or else do it himself. I can not complete all tasks at once la... I do not have thousand arms, I only have 2 hands, and my foot can not work for me. sigh.. May be I am too tired, I am very lazy to go ...

How will you define a support team? A group of professional that troubleshoot and solve the problem reported by end user. But, what I encountered was a support team that need the support from END USER. Today, I stayed quite late in the office, caused I was detained by the so called support team. :S Same issues, I sent mail to report it, someone called up to reconfirm, then, 2 persons came to ask for detail. I explained via mail, clarified through the phone, and told them the process face to face. Within one hour time... problem solved? naahh.... Their boss and the team came to me AGAIN!!! He asked me to explain the issue to him AGAIN!!!! He asked if I can stay back with them and troubleshoot the issue, without me, they will only look into the problem on next working day, that will be on next Monday. I really fed up. I already missed my deadline, due to the problemSSS reported since morning till evening, hope they can solve it before Monday. But they only able to look into the ...