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我在消耗着我的生命。 周末什么都不做、什么都不想。 呆头呆脑的过了两天，除了正餐、还吃零食甜点，囤积脂肪。。。 吃了睡，醒了又吃。窝在沙发里，看电视、阅报。 不想到外面去，不想见人，总之什么都不想做。 周日竟然睡到十一点钟。吃了午餐，继续窝在沙发里。。。 又过了一个无所事事及无聊的周末，把忙碌的心情沉淀下来，再开始新的一个星期。

那像是一个家庭聚会，所有亲戚陆陆续续出席，差不多都到齐了。五天的仪式，穿上白衣黑裤，我们都尽量不出门，不准看电视，没有娱乐。家里唯一的音乐是佛曲。可以做的，就是摺金银元宝，烧香烧银纸。我和弟妹四人，难得可以围在一起聊天，消磨时间。不只我们，叔叔、姑姑和其他亲戚也聚在一起。我家新年都没这么热闹过。 这一次，我看到了小弟成熟的一面。自动自发打理事务，他闷得慌了，找些事情做。哈哈。。小弟长大了呗！再不然，就是吃。包伙食的老姨，非常棒，每一餐都准备好吃的，还有糖水及宵夜。也好，要轮流守夜，也得补一补。 这是一场没有哭声的丧礼，婆婆年事已高，身体也虚弱了，离开也是一种解脱吧。这事，因为避忌，没有事前规划。还好都给人一手包办，只要付得起钱就好。殡葬仪式，原来可以那么专业了。灵位买卖，也有服务周到的销售人员，一级的售后服务呢，厉害！ 送了婆婆最后一程，仪式完毕，客人走了。我也累垮了。第一件事，马上洗头！五天没得洗头，我的头发湿得滴油，真难受！！ 这星期是三七了。婆婆，安息吧。

今天醒来，听到外面滴滴答、滴滴答，雨下得好大。吃了早餐，雨还是没停，再等一等吧。 近十点，终于来到了门口。是吉华国中，我的母校，这是我即熟悉又陌生的地方。不记得多久没回来了。离开学校超过十年，再次踏进校门，是为了支持百年校庆的庆典活动。学校变了很多。我和妹妹一直在细数着校园的变化。 吉华百年校庆 吉华国中 - 卓越学校 曾经，两旁都有高树迎接我们入校。 现在是停车格？ 不知何时，有了这座假山。 中国厅后边，多了个人造湖。 据说是为了防水灾而挖的。 湖中莲 看看教员名册，我只认出两三位曾经教过我的老师。走在校园里，很多事物似曾相识，尝试着找留下的回忆。经过课室，探探头往里望，想起以前的我，曾经坐在这里。 以前上课发白日梦，就是这个样子 :P 百万拉环圣火塔，由一个个小小的铝罐拉环编制而成。 吉华人的毅力及齐心协力，真让我佩服与感动。 迟些，这塔会被拆掉，把拉环捐出去。 我当然不会错过拍照留念。 这布条，很有意思。 回家的感觉真好，欢迎常回来 我在吉华，我渡过了六年小学，五年中学和两年大学先修班。这次的校庆，我在网上跟进着新闻。当倒数越来越近时，我更满心期待可以来看看。没想到弟妹也很有心，特地从吉隆坡回来。到学校走走看看，支持校庆活动，出一份小小的绵力，为吉华加油！！

Project lead is on business trip. Suppose to be short trip, but it get delayed, as expected. My assignment has been postponed to next phase, no urgency at all right now. Anyway, I had completed it, with some doubts that need to be clarify. Since there is no urgency, senior is not responding to my mail, no one bother to review the codes or design document. Well, just leave it there, till the time come. No assignment for few weeks, so, I do self study, explore new tools, prove of concept... good life? mm... my role not well defined, no direction, and getting lost.... bored!!!

2 crazy fellows, and a short notice plan, then we headed off to Padang Serai, Kulim, on Saturday morning. Travel by my little car, we went for food hunt, buddy be the navigator. The weather was good, cloudy in the morning, not so hot. cloudy morning Eh??!! The noodle stall is no longer at the alley, aiyo.. how come? Never mind, let's settled the main task first. We went to pray at a nearby temple. I pray for good luck. Many unhappy things happen lately, wish to have everything resolved soon. After prayer, we not gave up the food. Buddy called a local friend, we been told that the stall has been moved to kopitiam. Yeah.. finally found it, famous hokkien mee and curry mee, ordered one each, but taukeh gave 2 dry hokkien mee. Erm.. never mind, we will come again next time to try the curry mee. The dry hokkien mee has various toppings. Other than usual topping like prawn and slice of egg, it had crispy fried pork rind (pork skin) and fried wantan. dry hokkien mee Met up a ...

The water leaking from upstairs frustrated me for few weeks!! It started mid-May, the water proof expert told me the pipe from upstairs broken, need to go into that unit to fix it. BUT.... nobody able to contact or meet the tenant. The owner stays oversea, he authorizes an agent to take care of the unit. Deal with agent and condo management for weeks, still not manage to get in touch with the tenant. Is there a ghost staying there? I did go to check it out few times, nobody answer the door, but I can hear noise from my unit. Mysterious tenant. When I was away from home for a short trip, and reached home late night, the water was dripping and wet the floor, from common bathroom area till my living room. :( Obviously, after I switch off the main pipe, there is someone come back and switch it on again. But no one see the tenant. my ceiling condition, getting worst :( Argh... WHAT ELSE CAN I DO? Report police? What to tell the police? A ghost stay in condo unit above mine? sigh... ...

开始吃中药了。因月事不顺，西医说不是要生孩子，无所谓；所以找中医问诊。 中医师说我气虚，容易累，腰酸，头疼，还准的嘛。 不可久坐、站或走。看来，我真是要向岁月低头了。 饮食要清淡，要定时，早点睡觉，多做运动。生活放轻松些，从容些，减少压力。 不可喝过滤水，要煮沸。我之前买了过滤水机，就贪它方便，可直接喝。现在，不可偷懒了。:P 还好我不需要熬药，吃现成的药丸。不知需要多久来调理呢。。。