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累,泪。。。

凌晨五点多, 起身了。好累, 心灵和体力都好累,好累。

前一天,发生一些不愉快地事情,心里的不安,一直无法平复下来。一夜未眠,隔天还得装作若无其事的去上班。笑, 是最好的掩饰,让自己的精神集中在工作上,什么都不去想。

快放工了。我已经好累好累。想找人聊天。。。算了,无法聊下去了,回家。

一路上,泪水已经湿了眼眶。一到家,缺堤了。在花洒下狠狠地哭了。女人是水做的,我想没错吧。。。 把自己躲起来,不让人看见这摸样。喝了酒,希望会好睡些。缩在被里,泪水还是不停。三,四个小时了,哭得迷迷糊糊的 。。。。。。 睡了 。。。。。。。。。

醒了,新的一天。泪,该流完了吧。振作起来。。。

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